May 12th, 2005
Oh... I forgot to tell you all that I moved-up in Gander Land... but unfortunately that doesn't get you shit in real life. No raise, just more responsibility. BUT--at least now I don't have to call someone over every 2 seconds. Right? Manager Function Capability---yesssss! Haha, I need to get a life!
AND.... dum-da-da-dum (like trumpets)..... I broke Joe Marren's streak of never giving anyone a 10 on a news article. I GOT A 10!!! Just felt like sharing.
Yay for Junior year being over. I'm a S-s-s-s-s-senior. In 1 year (hopefully), I'll be "educated." What a joke! Seriously, I don't really think that college prepares anyone better for anything at all in life. What a waste of money and a warped view that society has on success. Some classes, of course they help, but in general---it's a big scam and a waste of money. Yet, I'm being scammed and wasting that money because people that I want to work for believe in that system. CRAZY! It'a dumb. But because I'm sick and tired (haha, not the cliche "sick and tired"... but literally sick AND sleepy)... I feel like being argumentative even in my own livejournal.
Goodnight. I need to shut-up.
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Madonna... "this used to be my playground"
I think I'm gonna have my best friend back sooner than I had anticipated.
My mood on the bottom of this would be a really happy and uplifting one.... if my throat didn't hurt.
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: "Greyhound Bus"
May 11th, 2005
Ouch! I'm quite sunburned from yesterday, but you know I love it!!! : )
Nicholas is coming here for the ENTIRE MONTH of July!!! I'm so excited! Like, he'll be here for the 4th of July and for his birthday... it's awesome! We haven't had him here for that long in about 3 years.... the last time Billy and Carrie were together and living on Minerva St. I can't wait, I love that little punk!
I'm planning Cabin Party 2005 for sometime this summer. I was going to have it in July, but with Nick coming, I don't really want to go anywhere while he's here. So I think it'll be in August. Just good friends, good laughs, good times, good drinks. I dunno.
I'll be 21 in 9 days. How weird! I really can't wait for it! We're just going to Squire's or Towpath for dinner and drinks in the early evening on my birthday, because we're hitting the road for North Carolina at 10pm. But it should be a good time, and Wendy and Audrey will be there--I MISS THEM! So that should be good.
Haha! Simon Cowell just told Ellen that she looks like Ryan Seacrest! Too funny! (I appologize for that random outburst).
Karrie, Billy, and I are all getting along really well lately. Well, Billy and I have ALWAYS gotten along well---but the Karrie part is unusual. She's doing so well living on her own, and I'm really proud of her. Haha, but I bet next week I'll end-up writing something completely rude and horrible about here, just because that's how our lives work! But for now---she's got an A in my book.
Ok, I'm gonna end this one now. But I'm sure I'll write more sometime soon. Bye!
Current Mood: content
Current Music: IL Divo
May 10th, 2005
Eh, weird day. But a lot of it was really good. Some of it sucked. Such is life...
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Billy talking about shitty water... And dead rats floating
May 8th, 2005
Life's so weird sometimes. Not good, not bad, just weird. Huh?...
It is ever SUPPOSED to all makes sense? Or are we meant to always be searching for the answers? If I start searching, will I ever find the answer to the question I just posed prior to this question that I am posing right now? Or will I continually search and search and search and find something that looks like an answer and turns out not to be in the end?
Confused? Yeah, me too. I drank too much maragarita mix tonight, I suppose.
Current Music: some guy told me there's a band called Little feet"
May 4th, 2005
I feel lost. Something feels lost.....
Current Mood: nauseated
Current Music: "Blue"LeAnn Rimes
May 2nd, 2005
Ugh, what a long day! It's completely obvious that both Jeff and I are completely sick of being busy all day long and working all night, every night. We were both so irritable tonight and not in the mood to be up front. He won out and got to spend most of his time doing a lot of busy work, which left me all alone up front for 5 hours straight. It sucked, and just because I AM so irritable, I was getting really annoyed with him. But this is all something that I will get over by tomorrow morning once I've slept. DEEP BREATH!
I have a powerpoint presentation tomorrow that I really don't feel like doing at all, for any reason, what-so-ever. But if I do it, I'll get 5 points extra credit, and I missed a homework assignment before, so I guess I should probably just do it. Ugh! Stupid me and always wanting A's in everything!
John had work tonight.... and I absolutely love it! It sounds so weird, but I love that I can't see him tomorrow night because he has to work (and I'm actually off). Now, I'm sure that this will take it's toll on me eventually and I'll be all "I miss Jooooooooohn" sooner or later---but right now, I love that he's working. And I see him plenty, so I'm really not nervous at all about not seeing him.
My mom has strep throat, and I've been tired and freezing all day and I'm sort of wondering if I might get it next? Karrie had a it a few weeks ago, and my mom is contageous until it's been a full 24 hours since she began her medicine. So.... let's hope I don't get it!
I feel very out of the loop. So much so, that I don't even know what loop I'm out of! I feel like there's this weird Mallerie/Michelle loop that I'm not involved in at all. And like there's a Rachael/Miller loop that I know nothing about. And a Darcy-has-a-new-life loop that exists without me. And a Lindsay-is-turning-into-a-working-woman-far-away-with-Bob loop that doesn't include me. And a Kayla-and-Ken-are-just-as-busy-as-I-am loop that I barely get to jump into. And a Jenni-has-been-in-Florida-for-5-months-and-I-only-talked-to-her-once-the-entire-time loop that is going on. There's also a Patty/Vinn/Jenny/Josh loop that I am in once in a while, but not nearly as much as I used to be. To be honest, I miss the Patty/Jenny/Kath days of going to the mall and out to eat almost every weekend. Is being out of all of these loops that I used to belong to, part of growing-up? I didn't know growing-up would feel so lonely!
I truly just miss seeing all of my friends. Yes, I have John and he is my best friend. But having a best friend that is your boyfriend is very different than having all of your girls around! I don't necessarily miss Girls Nights Out (in fact, I don't really miss those at all). But I miss nights of Starbuck's or Timmy Ho's. Nights of going to the movies or planning cabin parties. I miss nights of sitting at someone's house having a few beers and just talking for hours. I miss going out for ice cream at Mudd's or going for a walk.... or an attempted run! I miss my friendships. It feels like guys have replaced the girls, when really (no offense John).... my girls mean the world to me!
I just want a social life beyond John, Billy, Karin, Amy & Rick (the parents), Karrie, Alyssa, and John's family. I used to have that.... not so long ago. I feel lost without them. Lately, my closest friends have actually been the girls at work. And while that's nice and everything, they're not MY girls. They're not the people that I have spent the last 15-20 years being close to. I want THOSE people back.
I dunno. I just miss everyone. I'm tired of talking to my friends for 2 minutes and having 1 of us say "yeah, I'll give you a call soon" and none of us ever following through with it. I'll be the first to admit, I'm completely guilty of that. But just because I've failed to call before, doesn't mean I'll always fail to call. I'm off work on Friday night. If any of you are free, let me know. I don't wanna go out drinking, I just want a laid-back night with my girls.... whichever former loop of mine it may be in.
I miss having REAL friends. Not that I don't have TRUE friends, because all of my friends are very true to me and I love them dearly. But they aren't real anymore. I haven't seen most of them in well over a month. They are becoming fake in my daily life. I want them back. I NEED them back.
Sorry this got sappy. But we all just need some friends in our lives, and I'm sick of not having mine around anymore.... no matter what the reason.
Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: "Songs about me"
May 1st, 2005
My powerpoint project is done, but it really wasn't very good. I don't care either---because I followed every single rubric guideline to a T.... so if I don't get 100% on it---I will hate that man!
Alyssa is here and she's in a very whiney phase lately. She tattles about things that don't have any reason to be tattled. It's so funny because she is turning into her mother! And I love watching Karrie deal with it!
Nicholas went to a Yankee's game yesterday and I was jealous of him.
I'm exhausted, but what's motivating me is that I have 4 more days of classes left and a few exams, and then this semester is over.
I had a meeting at work this morning that was absolutely pointless! So thank you, Gander, for waking me up early this morning for no reason at all.
I still haven't switched bedrooms yet.... I knew it would take me forever!
I have a news reporting article that's due tomorrow morning and that I have done very little work on thus far. I need to take a picture and get interviews in the morning.
I'm going to a benefit this afternoon with Kayla and Ken. While it sucks that there's even any reason for a benefit to have to take place, I'm excited about hanging out with them today.
I'm broke. Like---absolutely, flat broke! It sucks!
I miss all of my friends. Jenni is coming home on Thursday or Friday and I'm hoping that I can get together with her sometime next weekend. But I don't just miss Jenni---I miss everyone (from both high school and college). If you're one of those people and you're reading this---give me a call, please. We'll make plans and have a good time. 444-1080. If you're not one of those people---please, don't EVER call that number because you'll creep me out, and you're weird!
John and I have been dating for 11 months.... weird.
We're going on vacation in 3 weeks.... THREE WEEKS!!!
I'm turning 21 in three weeks, also. I'm contemplating not writing in here anymore after my 21st birthday.... not sure yet.
Gymnastics is on TV right now, so that's enough to make me stop typing to go and watch it.
I'll write more soon. Bye everyone!
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Gymnastics on TV in the livingroom
April 30th, 2005
I'm TIRED!!!! I have to work from 9-5:30 today, which isn't SO bad (well, I like it better than the 1-9:30 shift, anyways). I'm working with Lynn, so that makes it better, too. But I'm really just sick and tired of working. When I'm not working---I'm in school. When I'm not in school---I'm working. IT NEEDS TO END! And at the same time, I'm pinching every penny for vacation and I'm actually a little upset that I'm only working 28 hours next week. Go figure! I finally get what I want, and then I freak out that I won't have much money. Oye ve! Aye de migo!
Jenni's coming home next week, which is quite exciting Oooooh! I just realized that if we go out on Friday night, I'll have off work! Yay for that! But either way, I work at 1 on Saturday and 12:30 on Sunday.... so it really won't be bad no matter what we decide to do. I'll have time to sleep in the next day, anyways.
I have to do my powerpoint presentation on Tuesday, which also means that I have to have it done and e-mailed to him by tonight. So when I get home from work, I have to finish that up. I bet I'll forget to take pictures at work today for it, but even if I do, I can always go back there and take more later since I'm done before we close. It's almost done now, so it should be easy enough.
Well, I better go hop in the shower so I don't have to go to work with wet hair. Have a good one, everybody! : )
Current Mood: good
Current Music: "Swing low..... sweet charriot"
April 27th, 2005
Well, I guess I'm updating again even though nothing new has really happened. My life is pretty boring lately----school, followed by work, and occasionally seeing John. I'm too tired for anything else, really. I've been working almost full-time at the Gander, so it's been hard making room for much else.
I'm switching bedrooms again (haha, I change bedrooms more than anybody else---EVER, probably!). Right now I'm in the little room because Billy wanted the Den back. But since Billy never even goes in his Den, I have decided that I'm going to take that room back. That's my favorite bedroom in the house, and if it's not being used anyways..... why waste it? So whenever I have a lot of extra energy and free time.... I'm going to start moving everything. It's been almost 2 weeks since I made that decision, and I have yet to discover both time and energy at the same time. But I will, someday.
Lindsay was home last weekend and I was so excited to see her! I'm really proud of her. When you're younger, you never REALLY wonder what everyone will do with their lives when they get older.... but looking back, everything she's doing seems to be exactly what I would've wished for her. She's truly my best friend even though we only see eachother a few times a year and only talk maybe 15 times a year---and that's probably an over exaggeration! I lofe her like a sister. (LYLAS... haha!!!!)
I got into all of the Summer classes that I needed, so I'm VERY relieved! I'm on 2 waiting lists for the fall: I'm number 2 on one of them, so I'll probably get in, and number 17 on the other---I'm not counting on that one. But I found one other class to add to the mix, so if I get into the one that I'm #2 for, I'll have 5 classes---which is perfect. If I get into both, then I'll only need 4 classes in the Spring to graduate, but I'm not banking on that at all. I'm just glad that everything seems to be falling into place with switching majors. I just feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. It's honestly scary to change majors this far into it all.... but I'm trying to make it work. It'll take some extra work (and stress) this summer, but I'm okay with that.
North Carolina is in 23 days!!! I'm so excited! Wait---SO IS MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And John is coming with us now!!!!!!!! Lots of exclaimation points in this little paragraph!!!!!!!!!!!! But I've fallen off of the diet/working out bandwagon. I'm thinking about trying to go hardcore on Atkins just for the 22 days (today, obviously wouldn't count---I had a sub for lunch). Usually I can lose a quick 8-10 lbs. on Atkins when I follow it very strictly. And I don't care if I gain it back after vacation.... I just want it gone for any pictures that we take there! (probably the most superficial thing I've ever said, and meant). I dunno, but with being so busy all the time, it's hard to follow any sort of eating and exercise plan. I just kind of grab whatever I can and go. But there's only today and tomorrow of this week and mon-thurs next week of classes. Then I just have my exams. So I won't be AS busy---I think I can do it. We'll see.
Ok, I have to go to class now so I'm gonna end this right...................................... NOW. Bye! : )
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: "I Surrender"--American Idol last night